Links to All My Finished 50_darkfics Stories

Warning: Any/all of these may include potentially disturbing content including sexual violence and child molestation. In the words of one infamous author, viower excretion advisd.

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Dear Yuletide Goat!

Glad to hear you are here!~ First and foremost, I am fairly easy to please. I like surprises, I like a lot of characters, I like a wide range of topics, so really, if you're stuck banging your head against the wall, run with what you want to do and if you enjoy it I probably will too - I mean, so long as it is not something involving tentacle rape, anything involving intense detail of vomit or anything involving eye maiming which are really my only three squicks.

No, I'm serious.

(Well, I mean, other than the obvious stuff like yayhomophobia or yayracism! but I'd hope that goes without saying. Other things, though - fandom has killed my sense of squick.)

( and now I get to ramble about what I like? OH BOY! )

Have fun with it! I hope you enjoy whatever you end up doing and that your Yuletide present(s) is as fantastic as I'm certain mine will be! &hearts &hearts &hearts

The Prompt: WHAT IF LOVECRAFT WROTE A SONG OF ICE AND FIRE?

I had waaaay too much fun with it. Unedited, all that.

THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME

Rules for the meme:

1. If you’re a writer, comment to this post with your username.
2. Commenters, no drama please. Play like adults. And writers, be prepared for any comment.
3. Pimp the meme out by posting the above code into your journal.
4. Be honest.

Comment, please. I'd love any feedback anyone has. For fanfiction or anything original of mine you've read.

Stolen from skaryma. I like writing presents for people! :D

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble of any pairing/character (from one of my usual fandoms). Original fic is also allowed--you can toss names, photos, descriptions of personalities at me--with the provision that none of the characters be from any works in progress. In return, those ten people have to post this in their journals, regardless of their ability level just post if you want to. Could be fun.

A tentative list of fandoms I am comfortable/have written in/would be willing to try, but throw ideas at me regardless ( fandomtown )

Have at!

...also, ThouShaltNot are fucking brilliant. This always needs repeating. .____.

So I've finally gotten back to writing in Other's World! This makes me incredibly happy.

Yaaay, return of the original writing. XD And it's actually...going somewhere omg. What a novelty.


...I need some water and sleep.

Poll #1362559 Sex and Villainy
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 10

What makes villains appeal to you?

Who is your favorite villain?

What's your favorite color? (necessary ticky boxes)

For a newspaper article - I need your answers. :D

Feeling incredibly upset about the WASL suddenly. Joy.

ETA: What is this RaceFail business? I think I missed a memo of some kind.

Also, the part that made me cry in A Storm of Swords. Minor spoilers.

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Yes, I am aware I'm a sentimental git, and?

Why people insist on turning on story alerts...for my oneshots. Um, people, if it's marked as completed chances are I'm not going to finish it. End of story. >___< I do not understand people sometimes.

Also, because I feel like it: my favorite Unsolved Mysteries (TM). Enjoy. References from Wikipedia, of course. Where else? 

1. The Oak Island Money Pit. Okay, okay, so as Unsolved Mysteries (TM) go it's not that big, but...this one has always fascinated me. I'm not even sure why, as treasure hunts and such have never been really my thing...though, I have to think that whoever made this thing must have been pretty ingenious. And pretty desperate. And also kind of wonder if maybe someone didn't just do that to bury...nothing...but that's because I'm me and that's the kind of thing I would do. XD

2. Voynich Manuscript. This one actually has it, right there in the first paragraph: "has also given weight to the theory that the book is simply an elaborate hoax — a meaningless sequence of arbitrary symbols." But nonetheless, this is another one from my childhood that periodically turns up (I was a weird kid, I read about this kind of stuff all the freaking time, probably explains something) that always interests me. Mysterious manuscript, turned up out of nowhere, totally indecipherable...stuff of a book, there. I'm sure there is one, and it's probably bad, but.

3. Taos Hum. Okay, so this one, on the weird scale, is not that bad, it's just...peculiar. Because seriously what is not odd about a pervasive low frequency hum that everyone is hearing but has no apparent source? 

4. The Bloop. Two words: Cthulhu's. Rising. That is all.

5. The Mothman. I don't know what's oddest about this one - the description given of it, the way it's connected with the bridge disaster, or just...the whole story. I don't know, it's a weird thing. This probably has something to do with reading The Mothman Prophecies, though.

6. Dancing Mania. Okay, seriously - this would have to be the oddest thing ever to witness. A bunch of people. Randomly begin dancing. And literally cannot stop even as they're dropping from exhaustion. Seriously, what the hell? And sure, it's explainable, but still...weird, wacky, and awesome.

7. Dyatlov Pass Accident. Weirdest. Thing. Ever. So, basically. Couple hikers go up into the mountains. Experienced hikers. Don't come home on time. So, not that weird yet. But here's where it starts getting odd. So the search party goes up, and finds that the hikers ripped their way out of the tent - from the inside - and ran out into the snow. In their underwear. So that's odd enough, and unsurprising that they were all dead. What is weird? That "while the corpses show no signs of struggle, one victim had a fractured skull, two had broken ribs, and one was missing her tongue." And weirder? The inquest "suggested that the fatal injuries of the three bodies could not have been caused by another human being, owing to the extreme force to which they had been subjected." And. The only footprints in the snow were the hiker's. Brrr. Read the article for more, I'm going to try not to think about this too much.

8. The Green Children. After the above one, in my opinion this might be the weirdest one on here. Basically, in the 12th century, two children, a boy and a girl, appeared in a village in the United Kingdom, confused and disoriented. Their skin was colored green, they spoke an unknown language, and at first refused to eat. While the boy died, the girl survived and eventually lost her green coloring. Perhaps weirdest is the account of the surviving child. "When she learned English, she explained that they came from the 'Land of St Martin', which was dimly lit because the sun never rose far above the horizon. One day, while tending their father's herd, they heard the faraway sound of bells. They crossed a "river of light", entered a cavern and eventually found themselves in Woolpit."

Of course, all of these probably have a simple explanation. But still. Weird, interesting, and eternally fascinating to me, at least. And I don't know. But I like a little bit of the unexplained in my life...even if it creeps me the hell out.

ETA: Just realized - "end of story" hahahahaha I made a funneh. :D

But Wait, There's More!: ....okay I kind of want.

I will try to stop mood-swinging so much, really. >__> Also finally have the seed of an idea, just need to knuckle down and write... shorelle you should be seeing birthday present soon, I'm sorry I fail so hard. XD

Also have other fics to write, largely for NYR and largely Melusine themed...still must try to write something happy. This is much harder than it should be! Eurgh. Am also trying to figure out how I can expand my readership on things, I would really like to have more people readng this stuff so I at least get some idea of quality (though of course compliments are always nice too.) 

And yeah, going to try not to be so mood swingy, am annoying even me. Though possibly partly because I had scaryvivid dream last night where I was failing - actually failing - almost all of my classes. And it freaked me out badly. Because my grades are slipping, and I really really really have been concerned I'm going to flunk something this year - as opposed to just getting a B, which I don't like either, but I can live with if I have to.

Too Sleepy To Function, off to bed and maybe reading a bit of The Book of Night With Moon. Maybe I'll be productive tomorrow. Something.

This water tastes weird, I'll probably get plastic cup poisoning. XD

ETA: Psych! Meme.

Pick up to 15 OTPs.
- Describe them in less than 15 words.
- Have your flist guess the OTP. (I'm curious how many of these people can get simply by osmosis.)
- PROFIT.

1. Dysfunctional, incestuous, traumatized love. (No, Mimi. XD) Felix/Mildmay, guessed by ifshadowsoffend 
2. That analogy about horses and saddles should not be that kinky.
3. They make teacher/student relationships just fine. Very fine. Bast/Kvothe, guessed by ifshadowsoffend 
4. You could cut the UST between this pair with a razor.
5. There is one reason I ship this pairing, and her name is Mimi.
6. There is so much wrong with this pairing. Namely the fact that I ship it.
7. The ultimate in opposites attract. Crowley/Aziraphale, guessed by trialia and redsilkscarf.
9. A whole new meaning to 'crazy-in-love.' Now with fewer hands!
10. Because they love to hang out. Though usually only one of them is doing the hanging. Maedhros/Fingon, guessed by, again, ifshadowsoffend 

DISCLAIMER: This was written for the school newspaper, which may explain a lot. As I will never be published, I wanted to post this somewhere, because it amused me. And that is the sole reason it exists. To amuse at least a little. Have fun. ...maybe I'll go do the other one now. Probably not. But I thought about it, okay?

Everyone knows about dinosaurs. Some of them are fairly funky looking. But what a lot of people don’t know is that there are some pretty weird things living today out in the wide world. Bizarre? Certainly. Real? Of course. The best in weird, in the safety of your own home.

 

( With pictures! )

Firstly, thank you so much for taking time out of your month to gift me with some fic! I feel rather precious.

So, in the interests of extended information...there's not much I don't go for in fic, and most of what I don't like was probably mentioned in the details...other than that, I'm a fan (a great fan) of angst, subtle and unrequited romance, fluffability, dark fluffability, stories with dialogue...

Oh, hell. Just write me something and I'll be overjoyed. Thank you and may your received fics be just as wonderful as I'm certain mine will be. :D

NANOWRIMO IN TWO DAYS

WHO'S JOINING ME IN CRAZY? :D

Title: Hands
Fandom: The Kingkiller Chronicle
Summary: Bast has a certain fondness for a feature of his Reshi's.
Author's Notes: Random image popped into my head last night, typed it up in drabble form. Gift for ifshadowsoffend, just because.


Title: Cards
Fandom: The Gentleman Bastard Sequence
Summary: Locke Lamora never seems to learn his lessons.
Author's Notes: Also with the above - popped into my head, wrote it up in drabble form. Also rather a present for Meg, as she and the twins inspired it.


Title: Birthdays
Fandom: Caliban Leandros Series
Summary: It's Caliban's birthday!
Author's Notes: Not nearly as happy as it sounds - it is Cal, after all. Been meaning to write this one for ages, finally got around to it. Am rather more fond of it than it probably deserves.

SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL'S OUUUUUUUUUUUUT.

YUSS.


....and more fic. Ahahaha.

Title: Anything But That
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 044. Hunger
Characters: Manny, Daemon Sadi
Warnings: none, really
Summary: Every man has a breaking point, as does every child. There are some threats that can't be resisted. Drabbleish.


Title: Weary
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 010. Torture
Characters: Daemon Sadi, Lucivar Yaslana
Warnings: Bloodythings, mildly, some language. It's not slash, I swear. >.<
Summary: After midnight, only one person comes knocking on Daemon's door.



Title: The Stones
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 093. Voice
Characters: Daemon Sadi, some Saetan purely by mention
Warnings: Just angst, y'know.
Summary: Daemon goes visiting SaDiablo Hall in Terreille.

Where do all these come from?

Title: Please
Prompt: 057. Please
Characters: Daemon Sadi, Dorothea SaDiablo
Warnings: nasty things bordering on pedophilia.
Summary: He hated that word. It was so small, so pathetic, so childish. And so useless.


Title: Yearning
Prompt: 080. Restraints
Characters: Lucivar Yaslana, Luthvian
Warnings: just angst.
Summary: He knew that something was missing, just not what.


Title: The Rising
Prompt: 072. Sorrow
Characters: Daemon Sadi, Surreal SaDiablo, Jaenelle, Saetan and Lucivar by name.
Warnings: Aaangst!Daemon.
Summary: Rising from the Twisted Kingdom, Daemon has things to consider.

Not that the two aren't synonymous.

Just - am I the only one who sees people and will go 'ohai, that's so Lucivar's nose' or 'omg, that guy has Bast eyes!' Because I keep wanting to yell this at someone when it happens, and I'm not sure how...strange...this is. XD

Just wondering.

Meanwhile. MOVING ON.

I have...fic things. INORITE?

Title: Mother Night
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy. Any surprises there? I am more than halfway done with my claim, though. :D
Characters: Jaenelle, Wilhelmina, briefly Leland and Alexandra
Prompt: 016. Evil
Warnings: Nothing, really - Jaenelle being Witchish.
Summary: Jaenelle has a question for her older sister, and Wilhelmina is a little frightened of the sister she doesn't really know.


I so cannot focus this evening. At all.

1) redsilkscarf , I have an icon for you:


2) I ship Christian/Cyrano de Bergerac and desire to write fic at some point for them. That is all. *hides again*

3) I have - more fic.

Title: A Promise
Fandom: Caliban Series
Summary: Niko will not break his promises. Especially not those to his brother.


4) I'm feeling horribly vulnerable and like all my friends only put up with me because they are obligated to. Sensible me knows this is not true. However,there is a good portion of me that is very Not Sensible at all and refuses to be soothed by Sensible Reasoning. It is not a comfortable position.

5) HAPPY BIRTHDAY ersatz_iolo! MANY HAPPY RETURNS.

I'm doing it again.



And - I wrote fanfiction? NOT FOR BJT OMG.

Title: Mostly Dead
Fandom: The Lies of Locke Lamora
Warnings: language - lots of language, and quite a bit of blood.
Summary: Locke does a lot of bleeding, Jean makes an attempt at optimism.
Notes: Spoilery for the end of the first book.



Title: Darkling
Fandom: Nightlife/Moonshine/Madhouse
Warnings: language, again
Summary: Sometimes love is more bitter than the lack of it.
Notes: Spoilery for the end of the first book, a bit of the second.

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Sometimes Locke can be such a morbid pessimist he makes me facepalm.

Icons!



And since I have nothing to do and it are raining, I do my usual and come up with PBs for my characters from various stories, and I FINALLY SUCCEEDED in finding myself a Keearh. So, that just leaves finding a really good Taine, which is haaard. I have one, but there are no pictures where he is not headbanging on a cello. Bummer. ETA: Scratch that, I have an appropriately pretty Taine. :DDD And I'm now addicted to sort-of-not-porn, aka whynotmodels.com. Ahahaha.


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...*sheepish*

There is really nothing else to say.

Title: Just Curious
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy (are you kidding? I'll let you know when this changes.)
Prompt: 055. No
Word Count: 713
Characters: Lucivar, Luthvian
Warnings: Absolutely nothing. Well, a bit of language in reference to Lucivar's parentage, but...
Summary: Lucivar wants to know who his father is, and Luthvian really doesn't want to talk about it.



Title: Vengeance
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 073. Cry/Tears
Word Count: 1,036
Characters: Lucivar, discussion of Jaenelle and Daemon
Warnings: Discussion of violence, implied sexual stuff, sadpuppy!Lucivar
Summary: The other side of that one I just wrote. Lucivar has only one thing left to live for.



Title: Briarwood
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 046. Wicked
Word Count: 321
Characters: Jaenelle, sideways.
Warnings: mention of pedophilia/rape
Summary: The only certainties were the beginning - and the end. And the voice...

More BJT, yes. I have another few probably coming in a bit.

Title: Practice
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 015. Angry
Word Count: 504
Characters: Lucivar, Falonar, Hallevar
Warnings: Brief language.
Summary: Lucivar and Falonar never got along very well. Especially when Lucivar was better.



Title: Lies
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Prompt: 056. Madness
Word Count: 1,075
Characters: Lucivar, Daemon, Jaenelle
Warnings: ANGST. SERIOUS, SERIOUS, ANGST.
Summary: Daemon in the Twisted Kingdom.

I'm finally going to get around to posting this, just for the sake of posting it. I like it. And am moderately proud of it, actually. Despite the fact that it isn't allowed.

Title: Goodbye, Goodnight
Fandom: Post-Tawny Man Trilogy
Characters/Pairing: Fitz/Molly
Summary: Some vigils are kept more for oneself than for another.

Title: The Aftermath
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy (what else?)
Prompt: 069. Forsaken
Characters: Morghann, Khardeen, Chaosti, Gabrielle, Kalush, Aaron, Arianna, Marian, Lucivar, Daemonar, Saetan, Tersa, Wilhelmina, Jaal, and brief mentions of Lorn, Jaenelle, and Daemon
Warnings: For lots of sad.
Summary: Immediately after the Purge, the change is audible. Kaeleer is silent for mourning, and those who loved the Queen strive to understand.

The third is, hands down, my favorite. Though I am rather fond of the fourth as well. df_prompts post coming up...eventually...? I actually did homework today!
Title: Rain
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Jaenelle, Rose, a bit of Daemon
Prompt: 079. Rain
Word Count: 442
Rating: PG
Warnings: Just a lot of angst.
Summary: After Rose's death, Jaenelle has business to attend to.



Title: The Heart of Me
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar, Marian, a mention of Daemon
Prompt: 095. Need
Word Count: 829
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Implied stuff.
Summary: Marian dreams, sometimes. But she isn't the only one.



Title: Promises
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Jaenelle, Karla
Prompt: 066. Midnight
Word Count: 1117
Rating: PG
Summary: Karla and Jaenelle have a chance to talk, just before Winsol. They discuss promises and safety, and Karla is worried.



Title: Whore
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Kartane SaDiablo, Dorothea
Prompt: 084. Hate
Word Count: 629
Rating: PG-13
Summary: He hates her utterly, but there is no getting away.

For df_prompts this time! I think I will have fun with this.

Title: Baby
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar, Aiden (son of Chaosti and Gabrielle)
Prompt:  Image.
Word Count: 385 (quite short, but it was too - yeah, I wanted to write it.)
Rating: G
Summary: Lucivar gets a chance to babysit.


Next week's DF Prompt: (I think this will be weekly) for emotastic!Caliban, or Locke Lamora. They're being loud lately. I'm going to try to vary the fandoms on this one, since I've already got the 50_darkfics one going for Black Jewels Trilogy...

Have fun, giez.

Title: Not Guilty
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Kartane SaDiablo
Prompt:  029. Guilt
Word Count: 359
Rating: PG
Summary: Kartane wants something. Or rather, someone...



Title: Lady
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar Yaslana, some OCs, Jaenelle and Daemon purely by mention
Prompt:  017. Fear
Word Count: 1,312
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Lucivar's language, mention of rape and its aftereffects
Summary: Lucivar's had to handle broken witches before. He just wishes they didn't remind him so much of Her.



Title: Obedience
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar Yaslana
Prompt:  061. Feral
Word Count: 1,016
Rating: R
Warnings: rape, sex, implied violence
Summary: Lucivar's never killed a witch before. He's never had to.

I am proud of these three. I would even go so far as to say that I love them. :D

Title: Dancing
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Daemon Sadi, Jaenelle Angelline
Prompt: 005. Lost Haven
Word Count: 1522
Rating: PG to be safe
Summary: Daemon has a rare night alone. Or so he thinks.

( Dancing )

Title: Long Time Gone
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar Yaslana, Luthvian
Prompt: 078. Different
Word Count: 1,086
Rating: PG for safety
Summary: Lucivar never feels quite easy around his mother.

( Long Time Gone )

Title: A Little Lost
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Wilhelmina, Lucivar
Prompt: 009. Branded
Word Count: 2103
Rating: PG for language
Summary: Wilhelmina is feeling a bit alone, and meets Lucivar Yaslana. She learns a few things.

( A Little Lost )

I finished Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norrell yesterday. I am here going to attempt to write a coherent review/summary of my thoughts about it. I hope. Suffice it to say that it was good: read it. I may be a little spoilery, though I will do my best.


I like writing reviews. I only do them rarely, but still...they are highly fun and entertaining and all that whatever.

Maybe I'll go and write something actually original now. On the off chance that I actually ever finish FullMoon would anyone want to read the whole thing and give me an honest opinion of its quality? I like it, but... *chews nails* Just a question.

I actually got a few of these done today...shocking, I know.

Title: The Pieces
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy (honestly, still have to ask?)
Characters: Wilhelmina Benedict, a bit of Jaenelle, Robert Benedict
Prompt: 085. Indifference
Word Count: 1,311
Rating: PG to be safe
Warnings: implied pedophilia, angst, things get broken, adorably pathetic Wilhelmina
Summary: Wilhelmina didn't want to cry. Crying made other people upset, and she didn't want to make anyone upset.

( The Pieces )

Title: Twelve
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Surreal
Prompt: 028. Innocence
Word Count: 1,528
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: rape of a child.
Summary: Surreal was only twelve years old.

( Twelve )

Title: Slipping Away
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Karla, Morton
Prompt: 064. Ghost
Word Count: 442
Rating: PG just to be safe
Warnings: angst, a lot of it.
Summary: Karla drifts, completely alone, in the darkness.


( Slipping Away )

I wrote a spiffin short story for English. Well, I like it. It's a bit...different. And probably not the best I've ever done, but I thought I'd put it out here anyways. Enjoy, perhaps?

Also known as, finger malfunction.

Finally typed up this stuff for redsilkscarf after it's been in my notebook for months. Taine/Keearh slash. Yes, it is fanfiction for my own story. Please don't laugh at me? Too hard. At least it's canon.

And it is DARK.

Title: Pain
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Lucivar
Prompt: 071. Pain for </a></a>50_darkfics
Word Count: 893
Rating: PG-13 at least.
Author's Notes: It was a bad day. Lucivar's been punished once, but there is a second punishment...that of the self. Warnings for self-injury, implied rape, and a lot of potentially disturbing stuff about torture.



Title: Cut Short
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Characters: Karla, Morton, Uncle Hobart
Prompt: 036. Never for </a></a>50_darkfics
Word Count: 1,658
Rating: PG-13
Author's Notes: There's nowhere to get away from them...them with their greedy eyes and their touching hands. Warnings for pedophilia, child molestation.

Title: For the Heart I Once Had
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Character/Pairing: Lucivar Yaslana
Prompt: 075. Non-con for 50_darkfics  
Word Count: 1,420
Summary: The night was cold, and the moon was out...it's a peaceful night, but there is no peace for Lucivar, not tonight, not any night.
Rating: R
Warnings: Rape, language.



Title: Seven Hundred Years
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Character/Pairing: Lucivar Yaslana, Daemon Yaslana
Summary: They have both been waiting for such a very long time...waiting, yearning, desiring.
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Implied rape.


Title: Mercy
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Character/Pairing: Leland, Philip, a little Jaenelle
Summary: Leland and Philip have a conversation just moments before the storm, and Jaenelle's mother comes to a realization at last.
Rating: PG
Warnings: Language


Title: Going Back
Fandom: Black Jewels Trilogy
Character/Pairing: Jaenelle Angelline
Prompt: 007. AwakeningWord Count: 440
Summary: It is quiet in the misty place. Quiet, and beautiful, and safe.
Rating: PG
Warnings: Nothing specific.

I love this picture on this icon. It makes me happy like No One's Business.

I'm thinking about New Year's Resolutions...I never make them. But I begin to think maybe that's because I don't make good ones that are possible to keep.

So this year: I AM MAKING ONES I CAN KEEP.

1. Ask someone to Tolo. That's it. Just ask.
2. Read A Game of Thrones.
3. Finish 50_darkfics claim.
4. Send something to a publisher. Anything, just send it.
5. Win at NaNoWriMo.
6. Finish at least one of those unfinished stories in my computer. YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT, BITCHES. *glares at them*

I CAN SO DO THIS.

Heather Dale makes me feel sort of...yearnful. Longing for something. I don't even know what, it just does...

Music and me are so interesting.

I NEED TO WRITE I'M PRACTICALLY TWITCHING WITH THE NEED TO WRITE BUT MY BRAIN IS TOO CROWDED AND I CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT AND THERE'S TOO MUCH GOING ON AND AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

THIS IS PRACTICALLY PHYSICAL PAIN, RIGHT HERE.

*flaaaails*